Adrienne, is a un-computer savvy girl who got her computer savvy friend Ron (he actually went to school for computers) to teach her how to use a blog. The reason for her interest in blogging? After telling a tale to one of her friends he suggested that her story should be put into blog form. Adrienne has many random thoughts that she wants to share with the world and so now she has begun a blog. Please be patient with her horrible grammar, maybe someday she will tell you why it is so bad.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

My Birthday!

Today I had a beautiful Birthday! I spent it with two of my dearest friends and my mother. We went to Troy MI to a beautiful Mall. It was sooo good to be with two kindred spirits. I prayed for God to give me snow and guess what!?! He did! One of my friends even took off work at the last minute to be with me.
This week I was kinda sad because I didn't feel like I had a little 'club' to hang out with anymore and then God gives me a day like today! I feel so special. He heard my heart and responded. He is such a sweet and kind God. I love Him dearly.


On to other breaking news. I am no longer going to be blogging on here anymore. My dad found my little space and so now I have to abandon this page. I will be starting a new blog though. Those of you who read this and have my e/m, write to me and I will give you my new site addy. Those of you who do not have my addy. Sorry you are out of luck, unless you know a friend of mine who can give you my new web address you won't be hearing my ramblings. I feel like I should stop while I'm ahead anyway. If you google me, you will find that my blog comes up third on the list. I'm a little famous now.....just let me think that okay. So good bye to Adrienne's Incoherent Ramblings, you served your purpose up until dad found this page.










You were suppose to be with me today.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

I wish I was assexual!

I wish that I did not have romanitic tendancies or emotions. I just do not want to feel anymore, I don't want to crave what does not exist in my life at this point in time and has not existed for quite a long time. I have been wondering if people born with down syndrome or some sort of mental delay have romantic inclinations? I think it would be so much easier in life to not feel romantic love, to be void of my emotional side.
The euphoria of younge love is such a draw for me, to have a break from my mundane life would be great! I'm a passionate person and so I have a desire to be with someone I can 'share life with'. To tell all my fears and secrets to, essentially I want a best friend.

Why this rant on romance? Dad had another talk with me about going to some singles groups. He thinks I need to be more deliberate about seeking someone out. This kind of seems forced!?! Isn't love suppose to be spontanious? Won't God bring someone into my life of interest at the right time? I have found in the past that if I force something before its time that I do not succeed. Isn't that the case with love as well? I can send out the right come hither signals but if it isn't right then God won't let it come into fruition. Whether I get scared and run or the other person moves away, gets to clingy, or just isn't that interested(ing). It seems like nothing has felt 'right' except for one guy, one pretty amazing guy who went cold on me. One day I'll tell you about him, you'll have to wait though because he plays a part in this blog.

Song Playing Right Now: Juliana Theory's 'Deadbeat Sweatheartbeat' *It reflects my mood right now.

Friday, January 05, 2007

Recurring Dream and a Sliver Under my Skin!

I have a recurring dream where I am pregnant but I'm not just pregnant, I'm pregnant out of wed-lock. In fact I'm not even in a relationship. Instead of joy I find myself in despair, seeing all of my freedom and dreams going down the tube because I'll be stuck with a baby. This dream is so vivid sometimes that even when I'm awake it takes me a couple moments to come to. I want to have kids one day but if I have them I want to do it right. I guess now I have a sense of what some women feel like and why they would want to terminate the baby inside. In one of my dreams I actually thought about getting an abortion. Oh man my dreams can be pretty vivid at times.

Urrrrghhhh I have a co-worker at work who just gets under my skin all the time! It seems that every little error I do is a cause for a hissy fit, she has no grace or mercy towards me! It is as though I am intentionally trying to do the wrong thing all the time. I'm the type of person who tries to do the right thing and the best thing all the time. When I screw up I admit it and I try to make things right. I'm frustrated and hurt. Sometimes I wonder if God is trying to teach me a lesson about grace. Maybe in the past I have not been gracious towards others and he wants me to feel what it is like. Kinda of like a type of bad Karma. God I'm sorry, if I have been ungracious, please forgive me but I don't know how much more I can take of this women! She makes me feel inadequate all the time! Maybe this is a way of pushing me to leave???? Or maybe this is a test???? I don't know I'm confused and guilt ridden.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Racism; A Reminder to Canadians

I just finished watching Crash and it was a reminder of how racism is still very prevalent. It wasn't one of those happy ending movies where blacks and whites become friends at the end but it showed the subtle ways racism seeps into American culture.

We Canadian's see these U.S. movies and think 'man not another movie on racism haven't they gotten it right?'. But apparently they haven't..... but niether have Canadians, I'll get to that later. Johanna, my faithful blog reader told me about a Afro Canadian friend who is attending a reputable educational institution in the U.S.. If I get the story right, (Joh forgive me if I don't) he has started seeing a white girl. Apparently this is still considered some what of a fopa(sp?) because people have made comments to them both about how it........isn't quite right. Now in Canada I do not think that this would be as big of a deal. But in the states their are still the black segregated ghettos, not purposefully seperated by the government but because of prejudice....prejudge between both races, a disdain for each other. Okay I do not claim to know a lot about this so I'm not going to speak about this much more.
On to what I did want to talk about. I want to talk about racism that exists in Canada. Racism between Native Canadians and white Canadians. We have government enforced native segregated reserves, laws that say if a native women marries a none native man then she looses (sp? loses) her native rights, and we have very poor conditions for our natives on a lot of the reserves. We learn very little about the atrocities natives have endured in the past. The horrible disease infected Hudson Bay blankets that were traded for the beautiful beaver pelts, the horrendous native brothels, the sickening abuse that happened in the mandatory native schools (Catholic no less) and the use of alcohol to cheat the natives out of land by feading their addiction(we intoduced them to liquour) for the liquour. I'm sure that their is more but I do not know about it. I have a friend who said that when he was in a hockey league they were told to hit the native teams extra hard. That was probably only about 8-10 years ago! My whole life I have been told how slothful and alcoholic natives were. How they just used the government. Yes, some of them might be but why are they?

This is why! Our government has been an enabler, they have used money as a band-aid to try and fix the problems. Money to help kill the pain at having lost their cultural heritage, the abused have become abusers within their communities. Natives continue to abuse alcohol to numb the pain they have and to fill the sedative life style some of them live because they do not need to work because....... the government enables them not to. Money will not fill the void! They are slaves to Canada, they're 'native land', slaves to a government that chooses to push them aside realizing the hole they have dug for these beautiful people and for themselves has become deeper and deeper. My heart hurts for this people group because they are a lost group that do not belong to they're own country. They have no native land to try and return to for comfort.
So what can we do? Well.... we could learn from our trigger happy American nieghbors that entertainment is a source of education. They have movies that educate people about the history of racism yet they end the movies with hope for a resolution through exceptance of culture and heritage. If anyone out here on the internet sees this post and you are in the film industry I strongly urge you to find a screenplay to make a major motion picture about natives. And if you do take my advice do not make the hero some white guy who was adopted by some warrior tribe AKA last of the Mohican's. Oh, and make lots of different movies because racism dies very slowly!




Special thanks goes to my second year professor of Canadian Youth Culture, she enlightened me to these current problems within our government. It was a class that made me more aware of what it meant to be Canadian and less like an American.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

The Female Species: Complicated but not too complex

Women know what they don't want they just don't know what they do want.

The End

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Rantings on ugly Crocs

I think crocs are ugly! I don't know why so many people like them!?! They are like the return of jelly shoes except they are way less cool than jelly shoes. Jelly shoes at least reminded me of jelly and jelly is good to eat! Especially orange jell-o or turkish delight! Crocs make your feat sweat and the shape of the faux clog just isn't workin because you can't even clog with them. I think guys that wear them look femmy. The only reason they are selling is because they have been mass produced in large quantities and are an affordable price. This makes people buy them but they are just a fad people, don't give into the fad.
(Shudder) ughhhhh I hate crocs.

Friday, December 22, 2006

What would Jesus wear?

Apparently he wouldn't wear skull and crossbone mittens. According to my aunt they are a symbol of death and pirates were and are still horrible people. "why would you want to wear something that represents death and evil?"
Oh aunty I think it is cool and I like the mysticism that surrounds pirate tales. I didn't say that because I knew my efforts would be fruitless and I would get my emotions involved and then I wouldn't be able to see her at Christmas.