Recurring Dream and a Sliver Under my Skin!

I have a recurring dream where I am pregnant but I'm not just pregnant, I'm pregnant out of wed-lock. In fact I'm not even in a relationship. Instead of joy I find myself in despair, seeing all of my freedom and dreams going down the tube because I'll be stuck with a baby. This dream is so vivid sometimes that even when I'm awake it takes me a couple moments to come to. I want to have kids one day but if I have them I want to do it right. I guess now I have a sense of what some women feel like and why they would want to terminate the baby inside. In one of my dreams I actually thought about getting an abortion. Oh man my dreams can be pretty vivid at times.

Urrrrghhhh I have a co-worker at work who just gets under my skin all the time! It seems that every little error I do is a cause for a hissy fit, she has no grace or mercy towards me! It is as though I am intentionally trying to do the wrong thing all the time. I'm the type of person who tries to do the right thing and the best thing all the time. When I screw up I admit it and I try to make things right. I'm frustrated and hurt. Sometimes I wonder if God is trying to teach me a lesson about grace. Maybe in the past I have not been gracious towards others and he wants me to feel what it is like. Kinda of like a type of bad Karma. God I'm sorry, if I have been ungracious, please forgive me but I don't know how much more I can take of this women! She makes me feel inadequate all the time! Maybe this is a way of pushing me to leave???? Or maybe this is a test???? I don't know I'm confused and guilt ridden.