I need to vent!
I feel like the world is falling down all around me for no apparent reason. Yes I think it is because of my lack of sleep but I just feel so emotional all the time! I hate it! Today I felt like crap! Even though I went to bed at 1 and got up at 10 I was exhausted within an hour of being awake. My body felt like a truck had run over it, I wish I could be like everyone else and have eternal energy. I hate that even though I don't really have any major stressors in my life yet when i get stressed my body just totally shuts down. Urggghhhhh! Normally I would be writting this in my personal journal but since I am in London and my journal is at home in Sarnia I can't, so deal with it!
So I want to tell you guys about some minor disagreement I had with one of my more....hmmm how should I say this......really fanatical......no...... really enthusiastic.....wait okay I know 'over the top' super evangelical/charismatic aunts. Don't get me wrong I'm evangelical and charismatic just not OTT. Anyway I recently purchased a broach for my black coat because I felt like it was a little too conservative and wanted to personalize it to my own sense of style. Now this broach is fairly unique I bought it in the states at a kind of shady store called Hot Topic, it sells a lot of darker pop culture things; gothic clothes, piercings, band shirts, fairy paraphanelia, etc. The broach is a crystal studded skull. My Aunt noticed it and said something along the lines of 'why are you wearing that?....I don't like that you are....you shouldn't be wearing somethin like that...do you know what that represents?' I responded with 'i like it...it's hard core rock starish. It reminds me of pirates.' I looked at my dad and rolled my eyes then and he smiled a knowing smile back at me. Well I though that would be the end of it but I should have known that the Pellmann family doesn't drop things so easily.
Later that night my Aunt came up to me as I was sitting with her 18 year old daughter and said 'Adrienne what do you think that means?' and I said 'poison' (you know on poison bottles?). Then she said something about darkness and how when we wear things like that it invites things to harm us even though we don't mean it too. I told her that I heard what she said and understood what she was saying. She got a little upset and said that she knew what I was really saying. Anyway after she left my cousin then asked me what I thought about what she said and I told her that it was a difference in opinion and that she was being superstitious. She then told me that different symbols do mean different things. I rebutted with yes, for example a pentagram or anarchy symbol do stand for evil things and can invoke evil. Yet, I am not wearing something that is related to witch-craft or is intended to. Ya, that's my rant, at least it wasn't like when my aunt's confronted me about my plugs in my ear lobes and how they were related to evil pagan practices in Africa. In sense I just think that they are fearful of my cousin's and I rebelling or not acting or looking lady like.
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