I am not a robot

Have you ever done something and while you were doing it you thought 'this is what I was born to do, this feels right'. Well I have. These past few weeks I have been holding the children of my friend's at church. Everytime I hold them it feels soooo good. I really believe that God wants me to be a mother. To bear my own children and raise them myself. It is something that pulls at my heart and softens me. He has designed me with this maternal instinct that I just cannot describe. It is something that he has programmed into me, it is apart of my genetic makeup.
Yet I am fearful that motherhood will not come for me until I am in my 30's because my God is a jelous God. He loves me and has kept me close to his heart. I have not been able to share myself with another because He wants me near Him. And I do desire Him as well but I do desire to share myself with another. I want to be a young hip mom. I want my parents to be young enough to run and play with my children.
So God when you are ready then I am ready. But know that I will thoroughly enjoy motherhood when it happens.